...it sounds like you might have some sort of mental health issue based on what you've posted.
My parents, though elderly, are in Wisconsin. I give them ten more years.
I don't have any friends anywhere. Since 1997 I have been afraid to make friends or to get too close.
Isn't that weird? How I am on the internet is exactly how I am in real life, yet I push everyone away from me. But that...is one big ugly can of worms.