^Oh yes, happens plenty here.
My gripes for now:
I'm getting so fed up with myself for not being able to get any uni work done, and even more frustrated because nobody seems wiling to give me a little push or anything. I'm a dedicated person. I spend all the energy I have on things I like and that are rewarding. My hobbies are rewarding. Working is rewarding cuz not only do I get paid, I make a difference, I help people. Teaching karate is the most rewarding of all, cuz I give people a good time, I see them growing into better people and since I'm currently the only one with time to teach, I HAVE to. Now uni is different. I've been stuck there for almost four years longer than I should have been and I'm still not finished. And nobody even cares IF I finish. I have no classes to go to, just self study. I've thought of just quitting, but seeing I have technically only half a year to go, I couldn't justify that to myself. I just don't have the energy to get up at 7, go to uni or study at home for a few hours, go to work, study some more, go to the dojo and relax when I come home at 8 p.m. Not even the idea that graduating quickly means I can shave 10 grand off my 23,000 Euro college debt can get me to work, even though it bloody well should. Those numbers are just so abstract to me, and i have 15 years to pay it off, so why bother. Blah.. I just need someone to get on my back about it all the time, to push me. Then again, just writing this down makes me more motivated already
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Now, complaint #2. My #$&%^* dentist. Two semi-annual checkups ago, I complained of a very painful gum infection around the first "real" molar in my upper right jaw. He said I just needed to rinse with saline solution daily and it would go away. It didn't. At the next checkup, 6 months later, he said he wanted to take a look at it cuz he suspected a cavity underneath the gums. So two weeks later he did. He had to burn away (!) a bit of the gum to be able to see under it. I had to come back a few weeks later cuz it was bleeding too badly (I mean it was bleeding after he burned the gums away so it had to heal before he could continue). Then he said there was a very superficial cavity he could just close up with a layer of polish. To be sure, he took an x-ray. Then it turned out my tooth was DISSOLVING FROM THE INSIDE OUT, and that I has a 3 millimeter hole in it. He said he could either do a nerve treatment (cleaning out all the infected tissue) or pull the tooth. I was like "if the treatment doesn't work it'll have to come out anyway, but let's try the treatment first". So he drilled out my tooth and stuck in a temporal filling. He'd do the rest a month later. At the next treatment he tried to clean out the tooth, but he has big hands and I have a rather small mouth, and for some reason he needed to use the one instrument he had that did not have a long handle. Bottom line: he couldn't reach it good enough, and since it was too much of a hassle to give me a few seconds every so often to relax my aching jaw muscles, he just stuck another temp filling in and sent me home with the message that he'd go to a dentists convention in a few weeks to see if he could get even smaller instruments. A month later he called: no luck, so I had to come in again to get a more permanent filling (me: WTF? Don't you have a colleague with smaller hands or something? You're just gonna hope that infection won't spread further?" ). While I was lying there with instruments in my mouth and he was putting the filling in, I heard the assistant comment : "That's quite a hole she's got." His answer: "Yes, it's already spreading into the root." I couldn't respond with my mouth full, but I was like "So it's spreading and you're just pasting it shut? Thanks a lot!" So now I have to wait for new technology to develop before he can finish the treatment. And all I get is a lot of pain, a ?240 bill and a tooth I'll probably lose anyway, since it still hurts at times. And if I lose the tooth, I'll end up with a hole unless I pay for a prostethic which my insurance might not cover. I just hope the blasted infection won't spread to any other teeth. My mother had dentures by the time she was 45 (due to diabetes) and have no intention of following her even though I'm a diabetic myself. I'm 25 years old dammit, I don't wanna have to be thinking about crowns and bridgework
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There, had to get that out of my system.