There were a couple of strong contenders to that title, but they were banned. You've been here for almost 9 months and haven't gotten banned so you must be doing something right.
Take a break from the forums for a while. When you're feeling better, come back and feel free to post in the forums that interest you. Or not. I don't have a problem with lurking - or lurkers.
And as far as people thinking that you're either mad or stupid, you'll probably never meet the people on these boards in real life so who gives a toss what they think? The people who truly know you know better.