From about 2003 to not-all-that-many years ago, I bought lots of pornography DVDs from local stores. A *lot* of pornography DVDs. 469 (69...nice...) to be exact. But...the strange thing is...I didn't really watch many of them. I had an unhealthy addiction to...I'm not exactly sure what. Was it the browsing and taking ownership of it? Maybe...because I've had home internet access since I was 17, so why else would I *purchase* it on physical media up until, like...2017.
But an unfortunate aspect of this, it that just the concept of pornography is offensive to my girlfriend. I've tried finding "healthy relationship" and "for women, by women" content, but it just doesn't appeal to her. Which is A-OK.
...but it means I've kept my stash hidden...which is hard to do when its 450+ DVDs (even when kept in CaseLogic binders), and even through a home remodel where everything we owned (including the bed we slept in) got compressed into one tiny bedroom fo 7 months, which we eventually moved out of into a 2nd completely empty room, and one small storage facility, which she also had access to.
Last week, I spent about 20 hours documenting it in secret, and listing it on ebay. Every last disc. So far, 12 of the 15 lots have sold, with small bids in place on the last 3, and I'm up to $772 in sales. It feels really really good to clear it out, even though that total is a fraction of what was spent (ever price out porn releases from a retail store? Some as high as $45 per title, but some were clearance "buy 3 at $9.99 each, get 2 free" but there weren't many of those later scenarios. Even if it's $12/disc average, that's over $5,600).
It feels like a weight's been lifted.